Maling Akala

Alam mo yung feeling na akala mo eto na, akala mo may tao na ulit na magpapasaya sayo at tutulungan kang makalimutan yung heartbreak na pinagdaanan mo? Akala ko lang pala.

Masaya siyang kausap. Maganda ang flow ng kwentuhan namin. Nagkakaintindihan kami kahit na ang labo labo ng usapan namin. Sweet siya. Mabait. Honest. SINGLE DAW. Kaya ako, may pagka tanga, umasa. Although never naman talaga siya nagsabi na gusto nya ako or something, na-hurt pa din ako sa ginawa nya. Naging close kami and naging honest siya sakin kaya nagtiwala ako. I never really assumed na manliligaw siya kasi nga wala naman siyang nabanggit na gusto niya ako. Kinikilig ako kapag tinatawag niya akong "MiHo" at kapag sinasabi niyang gusto niya akong i-hug. Siguro nga sweet lang siya at nabigyan ko ng meaning yung ganung ginagawa niya. Pero bakit kailangan niyang magsinungaling? Hindi daw niya ma-open ang facebook nya, gumawa na daw siya ng bagong account, wala daw silang internet sa bahay, etc. Pero kaka-accept lang nya ng friend request ko gamit yung fake account ko. Huling huli! Tapos kaya pala hindi ako ina add dahil "In a relationship" ang status niya sa facebook. Sobra akong galit nung nakita ko yun. Lalo na nung tinanong ko kung nag facebook na siya, at sagot niya ay hindi daw. Hindi ko natiis at gusto kong malaman na alam ko na ang nililihim niya. I thought of a plan. So nagtext ako sa kanya na "Kainis mga taong cheater!! Shet ung friend ko niloko!" I started the conversation ng ganyan. Tapos nagtanong na siya. Hanggang sa sinabi nyang "baka hindi intensyon ng guy na manloko" "baka naman may ibang aspect pa" "siguro nasanay na yung guy na kausap ung friend mo.. Nasanay na siya na kapag parang wala ng taong mkaka intindi sa kanya, ung friend mo yung huling taong nkaka intindi sa kanya" nung sinabi niya yan, alam ko nang alam nya na siya ang tinutukoy ko. At hindi ako nagkamali. Nung nag good night na ako, i said "thanks for everything" he said "goodnight erika! I'm sorry" Ayun! Confirmation na alam niya na siya ang tinutukoy ko. He said sorry. I forgive him but he should remember that I will never forget.....

Titanium

January 13, 2013. I saw a man holding a gun... And it was pointed at me. Horrifying! Scary! Super. It was just an ordinary day for me. Rest day. I was about to watch football with some friends. Before heading out, I just did the usual things that I do. I took a bath, changed my clothes and put some powder on my face. I left the house. It's drizzling so I took out my umbrella. I walked and waited for a jeepney. The first jeepney that stopped in front of me was almost full. So I waited for another one. The second jeepney that stopped in front of me, the "trapal" was covering the jeepney windows. I didn't see if there are many passengers. When I rode the jeepney, there was just 1 passenger, a man sitting near the door (right side). I was sitting near him, he was on my left. I paid the fare. A few minutes later, my felt my phone vibrated. I was just about to look inside my bag, I felt something on my left arm. Akala ko kakilala ko yung lalaki at kinalabit ako. I looked and I saw he was holding a gun and it was pointed at me. I remember him say, "Bag lang, kundi ipuputok ko to. Manong ideretso mo lang, wag kang hihinto" The moment I saw the gun, I cried so hard. I just gave my bag to him. He put the whole bag inside his dirty white backpack then he went down. I felt so helpless. The driver did not say a thing. He just looked. :( I was still crying when I got off the jeepney. Luckily, a church was in front of me. I just went inside. The mass has just ended so there are many people. I just remembered saying a short prayer then I went out. Because I have no money left inside my pocket, I decided to walk but I was crying so I decided to ride a tricycle. The first tricycle I saw has the "The Feast" signage. The Feast Logo! What a coincidence! So I got home and my mom paid the tricycle fare. I cried and cried and told the people in our house what happened.

When I saw the gun, I did not hesitate to give the man what he wanted. He wanted the bag? Go! All yours. It just makes me sad that I lost both phones, my coin purse and the ouchless brush. I am still lucky, I did not get hurt. I am lucky that I did not put my IDs and wallet inside that bag. I did not bring anything so important. 

Nakakahinayang lang yung pictures sa phone. Sayang yung purse kasi pasalubong ni mommy yun from Harrod's. May keychain din yun na Olympics 2012 memorabilia. Hay! 

Ang natira lang sa dala ko ay yung payong ko na ang tatak ay "Paolo". Oh diba, meant to be? 

Sad

I'm glad to be part of the OR family. At first I'm very hesitant to enter the OR because when I was a student, I never liked having duties in the operating room. I was too afraid. When I started having my duty in SRBH, I never entertained that I'll be assigned in OR/DR/NTR department. When they informed me, I refused at first. But they said that we are needed, I could not do anything about it. I had to accept it.
During my first month there, almost every duty day, we have cases. Every duty day, toxic! What's good about it is that I learned a lot of things. Sometimes I really feel tired and haggard but I just think positive always and never complained. Good thing my colleagues are all willing to share their knowledge and experience with us. I enjoy the company of my senior nurses. At first, I was really shy because they've known each other for years before us, new OJTs entered the OR. But they welcomed us. :) As time went by, I was able to joke around with them and laugh hard with them. I always enjoy having midnight snacks because I was not able to do that when I was in the ward. I feel happy when we are complete because we just share stories, banters and jokes and laugh all the time. We are like a family, really. Sometimes we go out and eat/ watch movies/ road trip. We tease each other and make love teams but we all know that we're just joking around and it's nothing serious. We are just like brothers and sisters.

I am thankful that I found a new family. :)

I know you!

Anong mafi-feel mo pag sabihan ka ng crush mong Azkals na "Don't be shy, Erika. I know you." Oh diba? malulurky ka naman talaga! Hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ako o mahihiya eh. Well syempre natutuwa naman ako, kinikilig pa nga eh! Pero pano nya ko maaalala? Dahil dun sa mga tweets at videos? Hahaha! Yun lang naman ang naaalala ko. Nahiya ako ng bongga! Explain mo nga pop-ah-pea. Chos! Kaya dahan dahan na ako sa mga tweets at galaw ko kapag nandyan sya, kilala nya pala ako. Wahahaha!

- fill the people in below
- answer the questions truthfully

1. Karmela
2. Kelly
3. Mafe
4. Jay
5. Joy
6. Wina




1. Have you slept in the same bed with number 2? yes

2. Where did you meet number 6? School

3. Have you ever gotten drunk with number 4? No

4. Has 1 been to your house? Yes

5. Has number 2 ever seen you naked? NO!

6. Have you ever gone shopping with 3? Yes

7. Have you ever seen 5 in a swimsuit? No

9. Do you know number 4’s middle name? Yes

10. Have you eaten anything infront of number 6? Yes

11. Do you trust number 2? Yes

12. Have you ever fought with number 1? No

13. When’s the last time you talked to 5 in person? Last friday (dec.16)

14. Are any of your top 6 family members? No

15. Have you ever done something dangerous with number 3? No

16. Have you ever slept in the same bed with 4? No

17. Do you think 4 and 5 would make a good couple? Both are girls!

18. Would 3 do anything for you? I think so. haha

19. Has 2 ever helped you out? Of course

20. Have you ever fell asleep with 1 and 4? Yes

21. Which have you known the longest? Kelly

22. Who have you known the shortest? I dont know

23. Has anyone in your top 4 seen you cry? yes

True or False?

I am a cuddler - False
I am a morning person - True
I am a perfectionist - Sometimes
I am an only child - False
I am Catholic - True
I am currently in my pajamas - False
I am currently single - True!
I am currently suffering from a broken heart - False
I am okay at styling other people’s hair - False
I am left handed - False
I am addicted to my myspace - False
I am very shy around the opposite gender AT FIRST - True
I bite my nails - TRUE
I can be paranoid at times - True
I currently regret something that I have said - True
When I get mad I curse frequently - False
I like someone - True
I enjoy country music - False
I enjoy jazz music - False
I enjoy smoothies - True
I enjoy talking on the phone - True
I have a pet - False
I have a tendency to fall for the “wrong” person - False?
I have all my grandparents - False :(
I have at least one sibling - True
I have been told that I am smart - True. haha
I have broken a bone - False
I have Caller I.D. on my phone - Cellphone? Of course
I have bathed/showered with someone - False
I have changed a diaper - True
I have changed a lot over the past year - False
I have done something illegal - False
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair - False
I have had surgery - False
I have killed another person - False
I have had my hair cut within the last week - False
I have had the cops called on me - False
I have kissed someone I knew I shouldn’t - False